Single and available

Nowadays, I face two kind of situations when asking a friend out.

Scenario I

Me: Hey friend, how are you doing? Long time no see. Shall we meet up someday?

A: Oh Hi, I'm fine. *Ignoring the last question*

Me: Are you free this weekend? Or any day that suite your time?

A: Ermmm....Hey I'm sorry, I need to balik kampung with my hubby to see my baby this coming week. Next week, I need to bring my baby to see doctor.....bla bla bla..... Next time la. Oh, I gotta go. Bye..... *leaving in rush*

Me: ..............

Since then, I hardly hear from her again and not even mention about the outing =(


Scenario II

Me: Hi friend, how are you? Long time no see.

B: Hi Susan! Nice to see you online. We should catch up someday.

Me: Oh sure. When and where? This weekend?

B: Great! Bla bla bla....*happily suggesting a place to meet up*

Since then, we have outing very often.

Sorry, no offence by the dialogue above. My key point here is the older I grow, friends that I can go out with are getting lesser and lesser. At my age, most of the friends have got married or attached. Married one, busy with their marriage or family life. Attached one, weekday busy working and weekend busy dating with boy boy or girl girl. So the only friends who usually can accompany me full time are same status with me -- single and available =(

Happy single life anyway =)

Jobless

It has been a while for leaving this session unattended since I was back in Singapore.

In the beginning, I felt happy and sweet to be home. I felt ambitious to get better job and so, I have high expectation and demands on myself. However, things didn’t seem to turn out the way I wanted to be.

After one month of job hunting, I told myself, just be patient. Two months gone, I start to feel anxious. What happen to all my applications? Am I over-confident? Am I too picky? Is there something wrong with my resume or cover letter? Probably I lack of experience in the job I want.

The longer joblessness lasts, the greater the emotional toll it takes on me. Desperation, depression, anxiety and frustration slowly come to me. I feel a sense of humiliation and my self-esteem starts to take a hit.

Praying hard for better weeks to come……